You’re not the only one whose hiding a bruise

You’re not the only one, yes I still got something to lose

Count down the days

Maybe I’ll be safe

Grab chance by the throat

Cause after this who knows

These fantasies don’t interest me

I’m trying to grow up please

Perfectly content to be a puzzle piece

Things aren’t meant to be perfect for me

What will you look like

How will you say my name

Will I be glad that you’re here

Or mad that you were away

I was so sure of my direction

But now that you’ll be close

Let’s see where the magnet

On this compass goes

Say goodbye to the idea of rivers and roads

Three thousand miles closer

This healing is slow

You’re not the only one yes I still got something to lose

Yes I would call you my permanent bruise

Will I be glad that you’re here

Or mad that you were away

-Damon Diehr

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I saw a sparrow today

A sparrow landed into my view on a branch above my grasp,

I began to reach for him not caring he was to high up.

His wings opened in protest

I drew my hand back,

But still the damage was done and he flew away

Leaving me to my pain

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One day

A day that is probably far away

Someone will fall in love with me in a bookstore

They’ll watch me dance walk to the music playing and follow my steps to the vegetarian section then to the local, drama, and then finally to the poetry where I will plant my bottom in the middle of the…

You’re not the only one whose hiding a bruise

You’re not the only one, yes I still got something to lose

Count down the days

Maybe I’ll be safe

Grab chance by the throat

Cause after this who knows

These fantasies don’t interest me

I’m trying to grow up please

Perfectly content to be a puzzle piece

Things aren’t meant to be perfect for me

What will you look like

How will you say my name

Will I be glad that you’re here

Or mad that you were away

I was so sure of my direction

But now that you’ll be close

Let’s see where the magnet

On this compass goes

Say goodbye to the idea of rivers and roads

Three thousand miles closer

This healing is slow

You’re not the only one yes I still got something to lose

Yes I would call you my permanent bruise

Will I be glad that you’re here

Or mad that you were away

-Damon Diehr

(Source: )

The woods girl in me hates what the city girl in me is doing right now

How I’m behaving

But I’m not in the woods right now, right now I’m in the hole

And out here I don’t act the same

Don’t get made at me … me

I reuse the plastic bags sometimes

And my parents do the shopping right and they’re the one who buys them

And who am I to tell them how to live their life?

Cause out here I can’t help but behave wrong

It’s so easy you know

And maybe you can call it lazy

But I try some you know

I don’t eat meat I rather shop locally

And I get my clothes secondhand

But you know sometimes

It seems to rough to give a damn

About anyone other than me

So why must you be so mad at me … me

When I don’t have a car yeah I’ll walk

But when it sits right there staring back at me full of memories and music

How can I say no?

Deny what was

What is

Even if it might not fit in with being all environmental

But the truth is I’m not doing this for me

When really that’s how it should be

The pains and gains of me is what should matter to me

So please stay mad if you want at me

But sometimes you just gotta let me be me

I stayed up so incredibly late writing poetry about you that I neglected to hear your knock at my door this morning. 

Tall cup

Drinking tea

Beginning to bitter

Ending to sweet

I know you feel guilt.

I know you’ll think you’re hurting me… like you’ve hurt others.

I know you worry, and that this fact, this imposibleness will scare you.

And no I’m not mad, and no only on occassion am I sad.

No matter what I want I need you to be my friend, to not let this go sour.

And no I did not mistake your kindness for flirting

And yes I understand that you love me, but not that way; and this is not your fault.

Believe me, this is not your fault.

I had many opportunities to make myself stop but I didn’t want to. 

Even though I knew that loving you could only result in hurting you.

And I’m so sorry for being so selfish, but often I can’t help but wonder.

And yes this is my fault, I’ve seen it all happen before.

And still I repeated the plot with one change, and placed myself in the cast.

I knew the same tragic ending would meet me.

I couldn’t help it,

I can’t help but hurt you, because the pain of loving you is in bittering me,

So you have to know… eventually.

That this friend, this weirdo standing tight her is the deepest shit,

Of falling in love with you, her best friend.

I was prejudice the boy said

And I am no longer

I remember the way you looked at me

And I apologize for the pain I caused you

But it was not my fault

My father made me believe that

Judging you was right

But I have changed and you must believe me

I liked you, I thought you were the kindest person I met

But when you spoke of your heritage my stomach turned.

And I never spoke to you again

I would like to pray for you my sweet Ruth

And apologize for my sin

Only music can bring me home

Music sounds just as amazing no matter

Where I am it will always bring me back to you

And once again I’m surrounded by beauty

And once again a cool tear hits my warm check

My eyes flutter

I coil my body close to my beating heart

In sync with the eternity

Memories good and bad rush past my mind

Like a silent film

And I talk

And I shout

And I scream

And I laugh

And I pout

Always I am wondering and I always I am thankful

(I never understood why you do this, until this moment)

I am you in this scenario

I am me

How stuck I’ve found myself

Un able to speak

Un able to be

How is it so easy for the rest

You guys aren’t even the same species as me

How could we possibly

It’s happened four times before

And it’s always the same reason that I force myself to stop falling in love with you

I stop indulging the fantasy and come to terms that I’m not what you want 

 A nice girl

A perfect girl

A Christian girls

The type of girl your mother would be proud to call a daughter

The type of girl your father would tell you to hold on to

The type of girl your sister wouldn’t understand how you were able to snag and always say you’re lucky to have her

But I was never that girl

I’m the ashamed friend, the one your father doesn’t quite understand why you hang out with

I’m the girl you tried to fix and hold up

The girl you protect

And I’m the girl who engaged your darkest side, which turned out to be my tamest

I’m the girl you talk about your day with

I’m the girl you share music with

I’m the girl you tell your secrets to

I’m the girl you’d run off to the other side of the country to work on a farm with

And I’m the girl you dream with

So why can’t I be the girl that you fall in love with

But I remember you can’t and that I understand

I don’t judge you

I don’t blame you for it

So why do I find myself here now

Round five of falling in love with my best friend

Why?

And I never told you and you probably would have never guessed it

But you’re the only person I would ever, could ever

Walk down an aisle under a vale for

You’re the only man I would cook over a stove for

You’re the only man that could make me settle and stay in one place

The man I’d be glad to have kids with

You’re the only man I could let myself fall in love with

But I stop myself before I go too deep

And I make myself realize

I’m a six year old girl forcing a clueless boy to play house with me

And he never wanted to play the role of daddy

And I never wanted to play the role of wife

It’s time to play a different game

Because the uncontrollable urge to give my entire self to you

To disregard my every opinion and tradition for you

Is far too frightening and fragile to give

So I won’t give it away, not freely

I still wait, patiently and silently for the day that you finally ask for it

My blade is mighty

It shall rest beside me

My name is strong

It shall whisper false trails

Alone we stand

My name and my blade

This is all we have

There are miles to gain

Naked I am

Alone with none but much of the truth

How dare I?

How dare you?

What’s left of me is hidden

Is it in you?

Naked I am

Alone we stand

I say I am

Alone we stand